Icy World

Sometimes, you just see someone you know on the streets, someone you know at a random place, random time. Coincidence? Fate? Whatever it means.

So random, so weird. Choose whether or not to believe, in what you see, and trust your instincts. Trust your luck.

1st, I cut my own old wound, then, I dirtied my t-shirt with paint. I thought it was just a normal bad day, but it has not ended yet.

SMRT! I have been waiting for train from buona vista mrt to jurong east direction, for … 32mins. And, the reason is not about accident. What is wrong? Damn pissed off, especially I had a bad day. 1st train, 10mins, packed; 2nd train, 8mins, packed; 3rd train, 8mins, packed; 4th train, 6mins, and I finally got up. Another thing that pissed me off is the train at the other direction, towards pasir ris, about 10 trains in 32mins, and its so unpacked. Not many people standing up. What the!

Flag, Id tag, cheers…
SOW is coming, and a lot of things are piling up. Need to finish one by one, if not I will die.

Seriously, I am guilty, guilty of signing up so many events at one go. I think I am courting death. But never mind, it is a test of perseverence, and I will pull through well.

Looking forward to an end to all events. Feburary 2009, that is the date I hoped!

Think too much?
Maybe?
Could be?
Must be?

Opinions, should I care?
Maybe?
Shouldnt be?
Why care?

Even if we care, so what? What is “think too much”? Being insensitive towards others’ feelings, are we what you claimed to be the way we should behave? Get this clear, you are who you are, and being insensitive is how you behave, and don’t tell someone he thinks too much when you don’t seem to be the most neutral and the most perfect of all.

How could someone be that thick-skinned as ever?
1. Sleeping in lecture room when you did not even join SOW.
2. Sleeping now in clubroom (and on the sofa somemore) when you did not even contribute anything to rag, or other FOP.

You are always that weird. Not that I wanted to mention you, just that you kept staying over though you are not an active Science Club member. Please know that we don’t really welcome you. We have already shown you the unhappy faces, and don’t force us to tell you that you are not welcomed right in your face.

I don’t have such a big heart to accept anyone that is so thick-skinned. Please be more sensible! You are older than me, more lao-jiao than me, and be mindful of your surroundings. PLEASE!

I am still trying, but I am still puzzled.
The more I tried, the more deeply I sinked into this. But should I carry on?

I don’t know. Continue, and hopefully through time it will guide me to the right path.

Weird.. Never been into this before

1. A crow flew on top and landed on my head before flying away.

2.1. Xin Wei drove to purchase rag logistics, and the lorry broke down.

2.2 I had no choice but to chair for the meeting that Xin Wei was supposed to chair.

3.1. My shorts torn.

3.2 I had to borrow “sexy” shorts from Andy (Thanks).

3.3 I wore this pair of shorts to town, and super AA. (Hate it)

Staying over yesterday to help out rag, and I realized, I haven’t change a bit. Sorry guys if you felt that I am a bit emo yesterday.

Just to clarify also, when I am tired, I don’t really talk alot, or if not, I talked nonsense, and my face, as you all know, don’t smile = Angry/Sad.

I ought to change. Sooner or later it will come.

Why do people think so much? Seriously, I have yet to arrive the answer.

Camps are supposed to be fun, and made people looking forward to. Organizers should be excited, should be enthusiatic about it, and any setbacks or problems should not show them in front of others. How would people feel if the organizers looked so emo and down? People who joined the camp will be demoralized, and the seniors will be affected, and not just a bit. And how can the camp be fun if the seniors are all looked sad?

Get on with it, and make it a success. Stop feeling inferior. The timing sometimes is just not right, and flexibility and understanding are crucial. Stop focusing on those tiny little small things. The focus is on the freshies, and most importantly, we all are in the same ship! We would not want it to sink also.

Today, it is somewhat an important day to me, because I remember, I remember your birthday.

You left us when I was just 12. And, thanks for the upbringing. I will continue to be a good and useful person that you taught me to become.

11 years gone, and how I wished i could know how you have been doing. Hope you are doing well.