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Back from Malaysia.. Wow!!! Even though its just a 2 days 1 night trip, it was so.. FUN! I am sorry to tell the people who missed this trip, too bad for you. (:

Anyway, the photos that I took, I am pretty lazy right now to edit and post it. And so, the trip highlights shall post it at a later time.

Good job, Programme Head, Mr Ahpek Alan, Vice Programme Head, Weikit, and 2 participants Andy and WeiYang, for making this trip such an eventful one. Soon, hopefully, we will have another one.

Malaysia Trip Preview

Hello everyone, here I am again, organizing a wonderful trip to our neighbouring country, with my most dedicated programme head cum tourguide, Mr Ahpek Alan leading us to his home sweet home.  Too bad the girls can’t join us, but its ok. Guys can have fun on their own! WAHAHA!!!

Hopefully, it will not be another flop, as history should never repeat more than 2 times, just like World Wars.

Gambler Addict’s dream

Yesterday, I had a weird dream. Maybe the recent events were the cause of it.

Firstly, I recalled that I was involved in some surprise planning of a friend of mine, who is going overseas soon ( in dreams ). And so, I was asked to wait at the corridor, and as if I was going to fright someone out. At the start, I don’t know anything about who I dreamt about, only a guy who kept doing alot of stuffs, making calls, panicky walking back and forth waiting for someone to open up the door. Then I saw Baoling, and I presumed the previous guy that I am talking about is her boyfriend, and should somewhat resembles him ( saw it in picture before ) . Anyway, the rest I only remembered, he shouted “surprised!” with some gift boxes on his hands, and after that things I don’t recall and then after that 3 of us were on the mahjong table waiting for a 4th mahjong kaki. I am lost! Don’t know how to link up.

Anyone wishes to decipher my dream?

I think, my hands were to itchy, and the recent CNY movie and also yesterday played mahjong all caused me to think of mahjong. Then recently alot of my friends are either leaving or celebrating their birthdays, and there are too many surprises already! Seriously, I wanted to play mahjong and have surprises in my tiles!

大三元，十三么，大四喜，十八罗汉对对碰！ WAHAHA!!!

Sometimes,
When it happened once, you might feel that the problem lies elsewhere.
When it happened twice, you might feel that those two persons are related.
When that happened in so many occasions, surely you must have felt that the problem might lies in you.

At times,
I liked to share my problems, because I believed that there might be people that can give me solutions to my problems, but it oftens ended up doing the wrong things or being sabotaged by people.
I tried to hide my unhappiness in front of others, but I just can’t get over myself. I am not a good actor. And it ended up annoying others.

Song: Colourblind

Colourblind — Darius

     Feelin’ Blue
 What I’m trying to forget that feeling that
 I miss you
 Feelin’ Green
 When the jealousy swells
 And it won’t go away
 In dreams
 Feelin’ Yellow
 And confused inside
 A little hazy but mellow
 When I feel your eyes on me
 Feelin’ fine
 Sublime
 When that smile of yours creeps into my mind
 Oh Oh
 Nobody told me it feels so good
 Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
 Nobody warned me about your smile
 You’re the light
 You’re the light
 When I close my eyes
 I’m colour blind
 you make me colour blind
 Feelin’ red
 When you spend all your time with your friends
 and not me instead
 Feelin’ Black
 when I think about all the things that i feel i lack
 Feelin’ Jaded
 when its not gone right
 All the colours are Faded
 And I feel your eyes on me
 Feelin’ fine
 Sublime
 When the smile of yours Creeps into my mind
 Nobody told me it feels so good
 Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
 Nobody warned me about your smile
     You’re the light
     You’re the light
 When I close my eyes
 I’m colour blind
 you make me colour blind
 Can’t defy the light you shine
 the Colours Fade completely
 Can’t defy you every time
 I feel your smile beneath me
 I’m colour blind
 I just can’t deny this feeling
 Nobody told me it feels so good
 Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
 Nobody warned me about your smile
 You’re the light
 You’re the light
 When I close my eyes
 I’m colour blind
 Nobody told me it feels so good
 Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
 Nobody warned me about your smile
 You’re the light
 You’re the light
 When I close my eyes
 I’m colour blind
 You’re the light
 You’re the light
 You’re the light
 You’re the light
 When I close my eyes
 When I close my eyes

Jealous, confused

I think too much these days, especially today.

I thought of things that I used to ponder over. Ever since my Dad passed away when I was 12, why did my family become so alienated? Where were the gatherings with relatives that we used to have other than the meet up during Chinese New Year? And why did my mum avoid the relatives from my father’s side? So many questions that I wished I could solve. And, I was so evil to even wanted to ask my mum, “Why does your younger brother and sister can converse well in english, and yet you can’t even pronounce a single english word well?” Though I thought of that, thankfully, I am not so evil to ask.

Maybe I am just jealous, or maybe I am just immatured. But seriously, I can’t really let these evil thoughts got hold of me. Sometimes it left me breathless. 

And, I guessed I was hallucinating again? Did I see the wrong person? Why did I see someone that resemble so much like her, serving my table as a banquet?

Seriously, whats wrong? I need a rest!

Couple in Tuas

Attended my cousin’s wedding today, and the venue is at TUAS, just beside tuas checkpoint. The reason that I heard of holding her wedding over there is that they wanted a seaview area, and so I expected it to be an outdoor wedding dinner, and we can star gaze and enjoy the breeze onshore. In the end, it turned up to be an indoor ballroom dinner. So, what is the purpose? It is so inaccessible. I wonder….

On the wedding itself, a video was played of their childhood and how they met. Its fated, many would say. One lives in Singapore while the other in California, and they eventually met up in Beijing a few years back. Just like that, and who would know that in few years later they got attached and entrusted their happiness to each other. It is just like another TV drama. It is so random. Anyway, hope that it will be a fairytale story for them – live happily ever after!

1/365

Roughly 1/365.

Many people yearned to have their birthdays often, because of the centre of attention being placed on them; while some, feared of celebrating birthdays, because they knew they are aging. But no matter what reason, does it matter?

HapPYness is the best gift that friends can give you during your birthday.

Hope you enjoy your birthday!

Graphs

Finally, I got my module today!! After 3 days of waiting and waiting, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!

不是我不明白

《不是我不明白》 梁静如&卢广仲

不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏
懂得爱 说来无奈 来自对你亏待
没可以掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在

会进来吗 你在送我回家我还在猜测
可都是真的了
再见面前 一直想象还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友 不再重叠
你的世界 我才不愿

不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀 时间细说所有不愉快
后来的爱 我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱说来无奈 来自对你亏待
没可以掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在

没说分手 终于是能开玩笑的朋友
我是不难过的 多少年了(多少年了)
我想过能够和你一起老的 却都有别人了
新的朋友 不再重叠
我的世界 你才不愿

不是我不明白 有些话没说出来
能再次关怀 试着细说所有不愉快
后来的爱 我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱说来无奈 来自对你亏待
没可以掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在

不是我不明白 说悲哀并不应该
我们的关怀 像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来 我们才学会爱
但现在说来感慨 不是那个未来
我们说好的 不会更改的 你会在
                                                                                                                         

有时候，真的不是我不明白，而只是人毕竟是人，自己的心理世界是很难掌控的。
有很多事，做错了时才知道做错了，后悔了。但类似的事又重犯了，又后悔了。
明白了，惭愧了，不安了，然后又想太多了。